Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Working Copy Sacred Writing

June 22, 2017




What

Children need more readily accessible opportunities to interact with the natural environment.

Why

A whole host of reasons: Obesity, ADD, depression, etc.  My argument will be centered on the concepts brought up in the Emerald Mile, as espoused by the likes of Stegner, Abbey,  Carson, etc. (I see a connection to Year of the Flood and the Saints.)  Essentially, that the American character is eponified by the interaction with nature, seeing nature as a partner, an opportunity--a way to challenge ourselves, inspire imagination, demand that we observe problems, questions, and opportunities and are allowed to create solutions independent of any unseen experts beyond... 

How

Every park and neighborhood, starting with the ones furthest from the foothills, should have an acre of wild space--What is wild space?  Anything that is not a plastic, engineered, mowed, watered, manicured space.  It could be entirely specifically naturalistic in regards to the local environment, a la xeriscaped or riparian.  Including big rocks of the local geology would be cool, or rocks from Idaho geology.  Basalt in one park, Batholith granite in another, Tablerock sandstone in another.  Sagebrush here, Ponderosa pines in another.  Lots of sticks and deadwood, pine cones and rocks.

Okay, but How?  ACTION PLAN!
Letter to city council that distills the notions embodied in Last Child and Emerald that also includes a concrete plan of action.  No problem.



Resources

example of sort of what I am talking about





June 21, 2017
Potential Pushback, or 
Seven Blind Mice

Frightened Parent
This is a terrible idea.  I've seen that rock at quarry view and I never let my child near it.  My tax dollars should not be funding traumatic brain injuries.  Further, any sort of wilderness will become a mecca for homeless drug addicts, and I wouldn't let my child near a park that had wild woods.  Not to mention what that would do to my property values.  And also, rabid raccoons.  I just read about a toddler in Seattle that got parasitic intestinal worms from raccoon feces.  And mountain lions.  Wouldn't woods just be an invitation for lions, wolves, and ticks to infest our cities?

Uneasy Parent
I'm not so sure.  I might let my kid climb that tree a Camel's Back, but I never let my kid's friend.  If somebody else's kid got hurt while on my watch, I'm not sure what my liability would be.  Besides, even if it was wilderness, wouldn't it need to be maintained?  Who knows how to maintain wilderness?  

Dog Owner 
I like to be able to take my dog to the park and let him run without having to worry that he is going to get dirty, or covered in ticks, or get quills in his nose because he chased a porcupine. On the other hand, I'm wondering if I would have to worry about cleaning up his poop if he shat in the woods...hmm

City Lawn Care Contractor
This would be bad for the local economy in so many ways.  Reducing the acreage that my mowers, blowers, and sprayers work would have a negative impact on my, and my workers bottom lines.

Soccer Afficionados
What?  Parks are for sports, not outdoor recreation.  Idaho has more public wildlands than any state except Alaska, but we have yet to produce an Olympic level soccer player.  Reducing not only the footprint of our soccer fields, but providing an alternative to running around following rules would be disastrous.  When children learn they could be hiding in the rocks and trees from their overbearing helicopter parents, rather than getting yelled at to "Make better choices, Briley!" there would be a mass exodus from our programs.

Video Game Manufacturers

If children know they can step right outside their door and find natural areas that simulate the simulated natural areas we've worked so hard to virtually create in games like Minecraft, or that they could actually play games like Call of Duty by taking their dart guns into the woods, we'd see an enormous downtick in both video game sales and sales of branded items embedded in our games.  Plus, just see what my buddy has to say--

Army Recruiter
We need to be creating both virtual warriors, as well as cultivating a crop of kids who have no idea what it is like to get dirty, or find out what it feels like to get hit in the shin with a stick or pegged with an accuarately thrown pine cone right upside the head.  We currently control that narrative.  Obedient squads of order followers, indoctrinated on the soccer and football fields and fed a steady diet of video games that only shows the glamour side of warfare is the prescription for National Security.  You believe in a strong military, don't you?



June 20, 2017

Take your kids to any park in Boise and carefully observe what they do.  Sure they will play on the anesthesized plastic slides and equipment, and admittedly, that playground equipment has come a long ways.  Still, a five year old will quickly ascertain that those structures are not authentic, and will soon gravitate to more natural structures.

At Camel's Back, observe the pine trees--there is one just to the northeast of the playground, and another along the southwest corner of the park, alongside the road.  Both of them have perfectly placed climbing branches.  On any given day, children will wait in line for the opportunity to climb in and play around these tree.

At the Tablerock park, there is a giant chunk of sandstone from the quarry that has been plopped down near the playground.  At my son's recent kindergarten graduation celebration, that rock was crawling with kids scaling its sides and assertively strutting on its flattened summit.

At Manitou, the creek draws my kids to a bridge to observe water skippers, and the canal (gulp) beckons from above.  Children climb up and run down that hill over and over, scuffing their knees and getting dirty, in the way kids do.

At Ivywild, there are a couple of trees next to the bathroom that are magnets for five year olds; a hidden Rivendell where they can get away from the hovering, watchful eyes of their Sauron-like adult guardians, and play with out conscience, reenacting...who knows what?  I didn't dare interrupt.

All of these things have in common that element of authentic wildness, and the inherent, almost genetic way in which children interact with these spaces is impossible not to notice.  Which is in stark contrast to the flattened, manicured acres of grass and goosepoop that constitute at majority of our park space.  The places are odes to organized sports; the habitat of the soccer mom, not the racoon, the volunteer coach dad, not the deer.  They are great places for kids to learn the rules and regulations and discipline of sports, which in turn will prepare them nicely for places in the  organizational superstructure of the British Empire.
Wilderness, on the other hand, is the lair of the American.  A place for unconventional, out-of-the plastic box thinkers.  Risk-takers and dreamers.  The place where a child can imagine a stick is a sword, a rock a castle, and a tree the Forbidden Tower.  Those schema, forged in the play of our youth, are crucial to have in place later in life, when that same child must imagine the solution to the problem of deep space travel, economic collapse, or how to fix that hole created by the leaky bathtub in their house.  


Boise is renowned for its parks.  The river, foothills, and Tablerock provide opportunities for quick access to Wild Things.  But I propose that we need more, and we need it closer.  We need to push back on the encroachment of the nanny state.  We need to pop the bubble of the plastic playground the and cone-constructed soccer complex, and we need to create spaces for our children where they can incubate that uniquely American trait of grappling with wilderness--that same trait the settlers at Jamestown exhibited, and was borne out by our revered heroes like Lewis and Clark, John Wesley Powell, Kit Carson, and countless anonymous "pioneers."  

We see "extreme sports" athletes as some sort of bizarre subculture, but in reality they are drawn the the authentic challenges that true nature provide because it is in their genes:  Americans have largely self-selected from populations around the world--people who are risk-takers, and are curious to find out what is up that tree, see if they can climb that rock without falling, giggle with wonder at the antics of a water-skipper. 

June 19, 2017



Advocacy Writing
Can I write something "new" that will help advocate for wilderness?  Can it be scientific?  The angle I like may not be scientifically proveable, i.e. that the essential American characteristic is defined by the interaction with wild nature, the curiosity (use of scientific principals) that inherent and perhaps the defining characteristic of American cultures..  Or, in other words, advocate for inquiry by highlighting the American heroes that have changed the course of history through use of inquiry--Lewis and Clark, Powell, and the hundreds of thousands of more anonymous Americans who struck out for the wilderness with the common purpose of finding something new.

Statement of purpose:  The preservation of wilderness should be a universal American ideal.  What I would advocate specifically is the creation of true wild spaces at schools and in our parks--not manicured playgrounds or even really cool gardens with drip irrigation and greenhouses, but real, unfettered wilderness.  The "Woods" of my childhood:

(Fine example of children doing science in the woods.)
Thoughts from Courtney's Demo:
Amber talked about using patterns in ELA and we talked about how students need to understand the patterns so they can both repeat them but also rupture them with authority in interesting ways.  This also led to the observation that patterns in math can lead to recognition to ruptures in the pattern; number sense is basically having a concrete understanding of a fundamental pattern, and that it is imperative to be able to recognize ruptures in that pattern--oftentimes "wrong" answers, but maybe not always?

This kind of just reinforces the my notion that 


Draft of Genre Writing, from April, 2016

Working Title

Joel Huettig

Chapter I


            Spring had come to the city, but you couldn’t tell.  Gus only knew because it was his birthday.  April 12.  His twelfth He’d been told every year on his birthday how the flowers and all been in bloom.  The tulips at the hospital had been a riot of color.  His Dad always reminded him how the cherry tree before the bridge had looked like a snow globe. 
            Now, as they approached where it had bee on their way across the campus to the footbridge over the river, the cherry tree was nothing but a stump.  Once, it had been a center piece of ornamental design—it had been planted with plenty of bare ground, not grass, so that it had adequate ground area from which to soak up water and nutrients in its roots.  As he looked at the stump now, Gus wondered if its roots had stretched deep enough to reach the river, and whether it might have been able to survive on its own, without humans to water and prune and add mulch it.
            It didn’t matter.  Like so many other trees in what had once been called “The City of Trees,” it had been hacked down and burned.
The man and his son pedaled past the bone-white stump of the cherry tree.  As he did every time, the boy asked to stop and search for cherry pits.  He was convinced that the tree was a direct analogy of the tree in Minas Tirith in the book Lord of the Rings.  If he could just find a seed and replant, things would change.  Despite the fact his father had assured him the tree had been produced from a graft, and was sterile, the boy had long believed the words he heard by Dr. (Goldblum) on Jurassic Park--"life finds a way."

Though realistically pragmatic, the father also harbored a similar hope.  Why not?  If life could find a way after the ultimate cataclysm, the big bang, in the harsh environment of the pre-Earth, then why couldn't one of those cherry pits, if his son could find one, harbor a genetic anomaly that would allow it to grow, despite the best efforts of the tree engineers who had sought to protect the investment they'd made in creating the perfect ornamental cherry tree.  And maybe, the reborn tree would in fact be the perfect tree.  Maybe that was the point of this current cataclysm, to find the survivors; to test the seeds of man and find out which ones could evolve closer towards perfection.  In that, he shared his sons optimism.

However, pragmatic realism won this day.  The man told his son no.  There was not time.  They needed water, and so continued towards the river.
            As they approached the narrow footbridge across the river, his Dad put up his hand.  Gus stopped in his crouch and instinctively crouched down.  He could hear the river softly slipping by.  A lone bird chirped in the predawn light.  Three  gently descending whir-whir-whirs.  Then silence.
            His Dad motioned for him towards the bridge.  It was an arch-bridge, wide enough for three people, or two bikes.  Gus was pushing his bike, but his Dad hadn’t.  A working bicycle with two tires that held air was more valuable now than any car had been when Gus was six.  His Dad’s bike was back at their house, a mile up from the river, locked to a piece of exposed rebar in the crawlspace of their house, it’s front tire removed and further hidden in a different location for good measure.  You couldn’t be too careful.
            Instead of a bike, his Dad carried a plastic five gallon jug that had once been an iridescent blue, like the blue of the ocean at the Great Barrier Reef that Gus had only seen in pictures.  Now the jug had paled.  Gus wondered how many times they’d carried it to the river in the last six years.  Wally probably would have said something like “A thousand hundred.”  He smiled to think of his brother, and stole a glance at the quickly fading last stars in the dawn sky, wondering.
            Halfway across the bridge, at the top of its curve, his Dad stopped.
“I’ve got a fever.”  His Dad spoke the words almost as a question, yet they still seemed loud to Gus.  He glanced downriver nervously.
The willows on the far side rustled, and then an answering voice rang out, unabashed and loud:
“And the only prescription, is more cowbell.  Huettig you old bastard!”
A large shape emerged out of the willows on the far side of the bridge and scrambled up the bank and on to the bridge.  It was wearing an old green military fatigue jacket, and incongruously, a yellow sarong with floral motif.  A banjo was strapped across its back, and a cowbell, not making any noise at all, was slung from a piece of orange baling twine around its neck.
The giant grizzly of a man came striding across the bridge.  Gus’ Dad put down his water jug, unslung the battered yellow backpack  he was carrying, and turned his back.  He crossed his arms across his chest as if he was praying, and took a deep breath.
The big man picked up his father from behind and shook him gently.
His father smiled.  Gus couldn’t hear it, but he knew the routine.  The man, Chewy, had been stretching his father’s back like that since the old days, the days when they had guided river trips together.  The days when they had been paid to carry around heavy jugs of water and other camp equipment, because it had been something people did for fun.  Though he’d heard the stories a million times, Gus still couldn’t imagine how people had considered camping a vacation.  They had to carry water a mile just to survive now.
“Where you been, Huettig,” Chewy questioned his father.
“The rain farming has been good this spring.  Haven’t needed river water, thank god.  Might even get a bit of a garden, if we’re lucky.  You like kale?”
“That a vegetable?  One of those things food eats?  No thanks.”


June 6, 2017



The man and his son pedaled past the bone-white stump of the cherry tree.  As he did every time, the boy asked to stop and search for cherry pits.  He was convinced that the tree was a direct analogy of the tree in Minas Tirith in the book Lord of the Rings.  If he could just find a seed and replant, things would change. (June 13) Despite the fact his father had assured him the tree had been produced from a graft, and was sterile, the boy had long believed the words he heard by Dr. (Goldblum) on Jurassic Park--"life finds a way."

Though realistically pragmatic, the father also harbored a similar hope.  Why not?  If life could find a way after the ultimate cataclysm, the big bang, in the harsh environment of the pre-Earth, then why couldn't one of those cherry pits, if his son could find one, harbor a genetic anomaly that would allow it to grow, despite the best efforts of the tree engineers who had sought to protect the investment they'd made in creating the perfect ornamental cherry tree.  And maybe, the reborn tree would in fact be the perfect tree.  Maybe that was the point of this current cataclysm, to find the survivors; to test the seeds of man and find out which ones could evolve closer towards perfection.  In that, he shared his sons optimism.

However, pragmatic realism won this day.  The man told his son no.  There was not time.  They needed water, and so continued towards the river.

June 7, 2017


Water conservation and it's corollary of resource (namely energy) conservation fires me up and always has.  The American Gothic farmers I grew up around seemed to almost believe that it was God that built those dams that delivered the water to the fields they tended so fastidiously in their bib overalls; their armpits still sweaty from the Church jackets they'd just hastily removed.  They didn't, and still don't, account for the enormous amount of wealth and political will and military might that all those "elitist easterners" brought to bare in the construction of those dams, and the cheap immigrant slave labor that channeled the water to their crops, first the Chinese who literally dug those canals by hand, and then the Hispanics who moved the pipes by hand, and once again, the Asians, probably Chinese, who construct the automated systems they now use.  

They don't properly account for the shoulders upon shoulders upon shoulders the scientists and engineers stood on in order to build those behemoths, and they don't realize that if the earth were in fact created in seven days, the geologic bedrock, literal and metaphorical, that those dams are build on would not be understood.

"Any drop of water going down that river is being wasted," declared my grandfather.  Why then did all those ultra wealthy financiers pay good money to float with me as a guide, on that flowing water?  Why is there water in the Boise Zoo but not in Lucky Peak? 




Scientists built the corkscrews that drew water from the Nile river in ancient Egypt.  Scientists built the Roman Aqueducts.  Wallace Stegner chronicled the scientists and engineers who solved the problem of settling the American West, seemingly impossible due to the lack of water first observed by Lewis and Clark and later chronicled more in depth by John Wesley Powell...again, scientists.

You can't have your cake and eat it--science doesn't stop when we feel it is convenient to our culture or way of life.  If you are willing to concede that 

June 8, 2017

I wonder if you can get from Idaho to Arizona using a parasail.  How much scientific observation would it take, without prior institutional (?) knowledge--i.e. maps and charts of wind patterns.  (Or is a map/chart a good idea that should be included--have to find it first.)  Raptor biology--wait for the hawks to migrate south...it's in that book Oma and Pappi just sent...

I wonder how hard it would be to get a raft from Boise to Green River using a horse or bicycle and trailer.  How much energy would it take?  Is it scientifically possible to carry enough TNT to blow up all the dams on the Colorado?  Is it even possible?

I wonder if I can tie in Koyaniisquati--life out of balance...Acupuncture---opening the Earth's meridians...This veers away from traditional science writing into meta-physics...I wonder about metaphysics--is there such a thing as meta-science?  Is that what Mother Earth idealogy hints at?

June 14, 2017



"River's up."  The man spoke to Chewy.  It was as much a question as a statement.

"No shit.  Beck says it's going over the top this time."

"Can't anyone figure out how to work that damn dam?  Cheese and rice," he said, borrowing one of his friend's favored phrases.  "Never enough water, and now it's going to be too much.  What are you going to do?"

"I'm not leaving the river.  Where would I go?  If it busts, fuckit.  I'll grab a log and ride to the sea.  Go big and go home.  You?"

"I have no idea.  Maybe the house is high enough.  Shoot, maybe that would mean we wouldn't have to come so far for water."

"What about the canal?"  Gus interjected.  "If the dam broke, wouldn't part of the flood funnel through the diversion?  It would be like a tsunami."  He said the last with a hint of pride; he'd researched tsunamis for an inquiry project when he'd been in first grade.  Which had been his last grade.

"I hadn't considered that," his dad spoke.  "I guess it would depend on where it broke over, if it did.  We're a ways downstream from the diversion dam.  It's a risk."


Monday, June 5, 2017

A Brief History of Mine

First, Some Walk-Up Music
*A note on walk-up music.  I started making this playlist in 2016, solely for the purpose of getting myself pumped to...wait for it...get my homework done.  I know, it's hard to equate epic duels with term papers, but it helps to try.  I was never an organized baseball player, but I love to follow baseball now; it's my favorite sport.  The narrative drama, the huge data supply of statistics and science, and the summertime correlation to my river guiding career combine in a fascinating melange of art and science.  There may not be real gunfights, but there are real duels between pitcher and hitter, none more dramatic than in game 7's of a World Series.  At any rate, I'd been musing on what walkup music I'd use if I were a major league hitter or relief pitcher.  In researching, I was sorely disappointed with the choices some young whippersnappers in today's game chose--how do you get pumped up to Hip Hop?  This list was a failed attempt to help them out, but it worked for finals.  A year later, this first song in particular has become particularly poignant, as the ending of the video (if not the music) reveals a fair representation of how it feels to have a best friend facing terminal brain cancer.


I'm participating in the Boise State Writing Project this summer as a student partner.  One of the things we've been tasked to create is a ten minute autobiography.  The assignment is wide open as far as format and to a certain extent even the content.  Or at least that is how I wanted to read the instructions.  Given an inch, I'll take a mile every time.

In truth, what I ended up doing is right in line with the assignment, because the spirit of the assignment is about evolution of self.  I had, unbeknownst to me, started on this assignment over a year prior to it be assigned.  I'd taken an online class, and the professor had suggested we make a video to share as a way to introduce ourselves to our classmates.  At that point in my life, I'd seen so many "selfie" videos on Youtube and Facebook that I figured it couldn't be that hard.  Well, I'll let you be the judge. 


First Draft, Autobiography, January 2016



I hadn't watched that for a while.  While watching myself, in closeup, trying to stumble through my speech without a teleprompter is still cringe-inducing, I have to admit I am a little surprised how many seeds were planted in this first draft that bore fruit later on.  Shouldn't be surprising, as my past hasn't changed, so the ideas and themes haven't changed.  This video represents me trying to "show" you who I am by filming different "clues" around my backyard.  Lacking confidence that the viewer would have any chance of interpreting what those visual clues were, I also felt the need to "tell" as I went.  

My next attempt came the next semester.  Again, an instructor wanted to start an online class with some sort of meet and greet.  At the same time, we'd watched a short video of Sir Kenneth Robinson speaking about the state of education in America that had been animated with whiteboard drawings.  Inspired, I attempted to do the same thing, using 1970's era technology, which is to say that rather than use an animated whiteboard, I just filmed myself drawing on a regular whiteboard and then sped up the video.  (edit: actually, that would be 90's technology.  70's tech would require a chalk board and a reel-to-reel film projector.) You see some of the same themes, now spiced up with "interesting" visuals and a kickin' soundtrack courtesy of Garage Band.  Mercifully, I avoided the selfie technique this time.  More show, less tell.


Autobiography, Take 2, September 2016


Two positives and an "area for growth" on version 2:

The big positive was the "ah-ha" I discovered in the process.  You can read more about it here.  As I listed my life in timeline order, covering the high points, it struck me that a resume hits that straight-line, arrow-like order in which we hope to follow our hopes and dreams.  I was a river guide for 21 years, but because it was a summer only job, I was only on the river for a quarter to third of those years--although I do like to remember that out of those seven years, three full years of my life have been spent actually living outside next to and on a wild river.  But what did I do for the other fourteen?  Meandered through a lot of things that don't make it onto a resume.  Overlaying the exclamation point of my resume life with the question mark of the rest of my life was a paradigm shifting epiphany.

As someone who has aspired to be a film-maker, and taken at least one graded course on the subject, the film is technically sloppy.  The cuts are uneven, the music disjointed, and aesthetically, I would guess the average viewer only "gets" about half of what I was trying to show.

Still, I did try to show rather than tell, and to the astute observer, one can see evidence of both explicit and implicit attempts.  I very explicitly tell about my family on the white board, for instance, and then quickly pan across their pictures.  Implicit in the film are details about my kids, like the messy room full of Legos and the selection of books I use to elevate my "lighting," which is itself an implicit clue to those Sherlock's watching--it is a bicycle light, whatever that tells you.

The Final (for now) Cut



Growth and Groans

This is sort of what I envisioned when I pictured version two, so I am only one step behind so far.  I took the initiative to undertake the arduous task of typing out "animated whiteboard application" or something on Google, and VideoScribe is what I found.  If you can imagine it, someone else has already created an app. VideoScribe is a pretty cool program; but I wasn't sure if that was truly the direction I wanted to go this time.  Nonetheless, I started tinkering with it.  I got about a minute's worth of video (hours of experimentation in real time) and then got busy with other stuff for a few days.  That was when I realized I only had a 7 day free trial, after which my work would be saved, but locked away unless I subscribed.  Not having an immediate need to pay $30 a month, I buckled down and got this assignment "done."

The program is slick, but almost too slick, as it does stuff automatically and I never figured out how to undo or change certain things, so there are certain technical aspects I am not happy with, like zoom ins and zoom outs in certain places.  On the other hand, the program added stuff that I liked, so I'm not complaining.  For instance, I would have liked to have used different music then what they offered, but the song works, and I like the way it cycles through over and over--even though it is kind of jarring, it mirrors a thematic element I'd hoped to imply, and the musical beats came together with the visual beats with a fortuitous amount of synchronicity.

Thematically, I followed the idea I'd generated in the previous iteration:  I wanted to juxtapose the "arrow/resume" concept with the question mark/meander.  I also mixed in the Star Wars archetypes, which is a riff on an assignment from college Speech class many years ago.  In that class we were tasked to make a collage representing ourselves--How People See Me, How I See Myself, and How I Truly Am.  In this version, I used the archetypes embodied by certain Star Wars characters to portray different portions of my life:  the yearning hero, the self-absorbed adventurer, and (I aspire to) the self-less sage.

Inspired by one of the coaches, I decided to not just imply there have been meanders off the script of life, but also explicitly show a few.  I'm not sure how well this worked.  Maybe that is why we don't like to talk about failures; there are so many caveats and excuses that need to be understood...or do they?  We are a product of our mistakes as much as our triumphs; I can only smudge the lens of how people see me so much.

I discovered partway through you could add animated video GIF's, which was helpful, as the free version I was using had only a limited catalog of drawings.  I eventually learned that you can add your own drawings, if you know how to make them digitally, and render them in the correct format, neither of which I did.  At any rate, the GIF's were fun to use, although somewhat limiting as well, as I had to either use what I could find on the internet, or make my own, a process that taxed the tired memory of my aging computer.  Additionally, there is a lot of meaning embedded in the images I used, meaning that the reader may or may not share in common with me.  If you aren't familiar with that exact clip from Seinfeld, a lot of the context is lost.  Likewise with most of the other clips.  Still, that is the relationship we get as writers/creators; we want a godlike ability to pick the exact thoughts and emotions our readers will feel all the while knowing we may open the wrong box, which leads to risk-aversion and the doldrums and a lot of stifled creativity.

Speaking of rendering, working with video presents some challenges:  To create the final, published six-minute version on Youtube requires a couple of hours of rendering, where the working, editable version is converted to a simpler, read-only copy.  You can't notice a slight boo-boo in the final product and go back and fix it, without re-rendering the whole video.  If you print a long paper and discover an error or something you'd like to change, you can just reprint one page or section.  Not so with video.  Maybe that is the impetus behind so many "director's cuts" on DVD.  Anyway, combine that with the time-limitation on the free trial, and I was forced to make decisions, and live with my product.  I actually like that, as I more and more see my life as a series of snapshots anyway.  Achieving perfection is a worthy pursuit, and I can conceive this video being much more than it is, yet I can't deny the perfection of that moment when time had run out and I had to submit, or risk losing all that I had--it wasn't all that I wanted--but it never is.  

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Post-Presentation Reflection
June 26th, 2017

Technically speaking, I have to wonder about how effective it was. In light of the demonstrations and discussions we've had that touch on different learning modalities, I surmise that a few of my classmates do not have an affinity for visual learning and/or nonlinear styles, which I've discovered are two of my preferred modalities.  As such, I have meta-cognated on why I chose a visual modality to present my autobiography in mostly non-linear fashion to make a non-linear point.

Over the course of the institute, I've mentioned offhand to a couple of classmates that I've been to the South Pole, and they were surprised, which surprised me, since it was in my autobiography.  I lingered on that shot in the video for an extra beat, even though I didn't want to dwell on it.  I'm wondering if those classmates just weren't engaged to the modality, and missed it, or were trying to write notes, and missed it, or if the shot/imagery itself was confusing, i.e., "there was something about the South Pole in there, but I'm not sure what it meant..." I think I still have a lot to learn about using film as a means of communicating.  One of the hardest things with film is you watch it over and over while editing it together, and you start to feel like you are beating things over the head, when in fact you may be jumping through them too quickly.

I keep thinking of minor tweaks I'd make or add to it.  If I had (or ever have again) access to the working file, I'd add alot more of the "other" stuff around the circle, in rapid fire.  And I'd figure out a way to have a long, lingering shot at the end where the whole thing stays in focus so you can see it all and look at the various

The biggest ah-ha, however, remains the idea, reinforced above in my musings about previous versions, that my life--both future and past--is a work in progress, endlessly under revision, and intrinsically imperfect.